I am looking for a job. For the first time in 40 years, I have joined the ranks of the unemployed and am looking for a job.
But wait, aren’t you a pastor? Isn’t God supposed to open some door for you to begin caring for people in a congregation again?
Sometimes God just doesn’t work that way. Sometimes, even for pastors, there are those times in which God is silent. There are times that the world seems to get its way.
Now don’t get me wrong, I have not lost my faith in God or my calling. I know that sometimes God uses pauses and unknown spaces in which to strengthen our hearts and our spirits. After all, this is not a world of happy ever after but of suffering, sorrow, sickness, violence, and death.
I am more than willing to wash dishes. cook hamburgers, or scrub floors to make my way. What troubles me is finding out how many economic predators there are out there trying to make money off those who have very little money to spend.
Since I am new to the unemployment game, I tried to use an online service to see what might be available in my area. This was a big mistake. Now my email is flooded with offers to give me credit cards, sell me insurance, offer me jobs if I am willing to pay a “small fee” in advance. In other words, I am now viewed as a sheep by a bunch of wolves.
If you have never been unemployed because you were forced out of a position you have no idea how painful and emotionally crushing the experience can be. To have this vexatious desolation compounded by those seeking to make money off your misery does make one wonder if, in fact, love is growing colder in our world.
I have no doubt the Lord will care for me and my wife. I will find a job. I will continue to do my volunteer work as a spiritual director and servant in the church I am attending. My hope lies beyond my current circumstances and situations. However, my heart goes out to those who will give in to the scams and false hopes offered by individuals who could have the kind of heart to prey on those who are already down.
Matthew 24:12 and because of the increase of evildoing, the love of many will grow cold. (Matt. 24:12 NAB)