“Oh, how painful it is to Me that souls so seldom unite themselves to Me in Holy Communion. I wait for souls, and they are indifferent toward Me. I love them tenderly and sincerely, and they distrust Me. I want to lavish My graces on them, and they do not want to accept them. They treat Me as a dead object, whereas My Heart is full of love and mercy. In order that you may know at least some of My pain, imagine the most tender of mothers who has great love for her children, while those children spurn her love. Consider her pain. No one is in a position to console her. This is but a pale image and likeness of My love.”
— Diary of St. Faustina Kowalska, 1447
AN EXCERPT FROM, Diary of St. Faustina
I have no doubt that I have hurt other people with words and deeds. I have tried to practice a pattern of thought in which I ask God for forgiveness and for God to bless those I hurt years ago but will likely ever see again. Rarely, if by some act of chance I come into contact with any of those people, I do apologize and accept the fact that by my words or actions I hurt them. I do not try to hide behind excuses or the lack of maturity at a certain age. I accept what I have done and hope my apology does some good.
I also realize, now, that every time I hurt another human being, I also hurt God. Not only do I realize I have hurt God every by what I do, but also what I don’t do. I hurt God when I place his desire for me on a lower priority than my own desires. For such actions I am grieved and seek forgiveness
I realize I am so blessed to be loved by a God who is willing to bear so much on my account. I seek to be grateful for such grace. I understand it is grace I do not deserve.
In this world, the powers and principalities operate to cause God as much pain as they can. The fallen angels and Satan himself understand that to get human beings to defy God, ignore God, or to deny God brings pain to God’s heart. It is important that we grasp the following truth, “Until we join with God and draw as near as we can to the Lover of our souls, can we not even begin to grasp how much God loves us.” I believe there is great truth in the saying, “No one can hurt you more than someone you love.”
I believe it is very important in our spiritual growth to be aware of the reasons we love God and that we give God sincere thanksgiving and acts of devotion as often as we can. Whereas the enemy is always looking for an opportunity to draw us away from God and the grace God offers, I believe we should be looking for every opportunity we can to say and show by our actions that we love God and are thankful for all God’s graces.
Even now, as I write this words, I am reminded just how much I have been forgiven and just how much God does love me. Such a reminder leads me to end this post with the words, “God, Lord, Savior, Spirit, oh holy One in Three, I do love thee.”