“O my God, teach me to be generous, to serve you as you deserve to be served, to give without counting the cost, to fight without fear of being wounded, to work without seeking rest, and to spend myself without expecting any reward, but the knowledge that I am doing your holy will. Amen.” — St. Ignatius of Loyola
Each of us make decisions everyday. Simple decisions about what we wear, what we eat, what we watch on television. We also may have complicated decisions that we need to make. How do we know what is the best decision to make?
If we are not intentional about our decision making we may allow the world or some other principality and power impress us to make a decision that my go against the decision God would like for us to make. We may be prejudiced toward one decision over another due to emotional factors or from selfish desires. These decisions can really have a negative impact on our lives.
Perhaps the prayer quoted above by Ignatius of Loyola would be a good prayer to pray before we made decisions that could impact our lives, especially or spiritual lives. We are beings made for a reason. The bottom line of this reason is that we are made out of the love God expressed in our creation. We can only fully live our lives when we make decision that God wills to be best for us. Everything else can leave us in a place we really do not want to be in.
Holy indifference is seeking to allow God to lead us in our decision making process. When we allow the movement of the Holy Spirit in our lives we can be assured we are making the best decisions. Otherwise, we may be influenced by a false spirit that does not have our best interest at heart. Getting help from a competent spiritual director is a good way to begin living a life grounded in good decisions for the greater glory of God and thus to our greater glory as well.