“The soul hungers for God, and nothing but God can satiate it. Therefore He came to dwell on earth and assumed a Body in order that this Body might become the Food of our souls.” — St. John Vianney
Today started off in difficulty. Worries and concerns crowded into my mind choking my soul. I became aware the desolation was knocking at my door. Even my Sunday nap contained memories of hurt, failure and shame.
But then came the 5 pm mass. The sermon was not the homiletically best I have ever heard. It was a said mass so there was no music. However, when the host was being blessed and the mystery of the Eucharist filled the room, I was transported back to that upper room. Jesus was there as were the disciples, I could see them in my mind, in my prayer. As Jesus broke the bread, I knew it was an offer to me. As he passed the cup, I knew it was an act of love, a desire to be closer and for me to remember no matter what was to come He was with me.
I took the host and placed it in my mouth. It was like an intimate kiss. The thoughts and worries of the day disappeared. The desolation that was stalking me was no where to be found. I had been blessed.
I am thankful for the following prayer I came across on line yesterday. It is so fitting for me today.
My Jesus, I believe that You are present in the most Blessed Sacrament. I love You above all things and I desire to receive You into my soul. Since I cannot now receive You sacramentally, come at least spiritually into my heart. I embrace You as if You were already there, and unite myself wholly to You. Never permit me to be separated from You. Amen.